The definition of courage is doing something with the risk of failure. Being an artist takes courage. You have to be on that edge where you don't really know what you're doing or how your going to do it, but you've got an instinct and it's strong and you're willing to go for it.
When you're right on the cusp of "this might fail", that's when you're on the cusp of being a true aritst, that's when you're on the cusp of innovating.
I know that edge can be absolutely terrifying, but it's also thrilling. That's where creativity thrives. And to me, there is no better feeing than having an idea, a hunch, and to see it begin to come to life, to see it surprise you. Maybe something happens that you had no idea would happen, maybe it's better, maybe it's more exciting.
I am on this cusp now. I am always on that cusp. I don't know life to be any other way, and I don't think I ever will. It's what I live for, the cusp, the edge, the surprise. The chance of nailing it. The chance of trying and realizing something new, something unexpected.
I've come to accept the risk, embrace the potential failure to be with the fear.
So what's the worst that could happen? You get to spend a day painting. But to your soul... the actualization of your vision means everything, it's life or death and it's absolutely terrifying to think of it not happening, or it not being right, or it not being full and trully alive.
I've come to realize, that the more scared I am, then the more of a sign it is to me that I am on the right track. I am on to something. I learn to like the fear. I learn to respect it. It's the only way to be an artist. It's the only way to carry on.
So today I say, what are you most afraid of? Ok, do that thing. Do it now. Go ahead, use your expensive paint, see what happens. Failure? Surprise? Revolution?
It's worth it.back
Hi I'm Fotini
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I am a painter currently based in Greenville, South Carolina. Through my work, I seek to communicate an internal narrative using traditional painting processes.
Here you will find information about what I am working on, recollections of my process, things that inspire me. I am asking questions about art, writing letters to myself, reflecting, learning, growing, discovering. Thank you for joining and supporting the adventure.